I've been battling headaches for a month now. I had been "headache free" for a week. I decided to back off on the medicine and lo and behold--a whooper, that has lasted three days! The thought that I keep coming to me was-- "when you feel good you forget what it feels to be in pain." I had forgotten how much these headaches hurt and intrude in my life. Kindof like you can't go back to feeling your labor pains! Your mind protects you from it.That is probably true with emotional pain too. Can you truly feel how you felt at your darkest? You haven't forgotten it, but you can't go there completely in your mind.
I don't think it works the other way around. When I feel miserable, I can REMEMBER what it feels like to feel better. I crave it, I know how I am suppose to feel. You swear you will never take it for granted again. I can only imagine if I were really sick. How much I would worship my healthy former self! Never taking anything for granted. That is what they mean by, "live as if the day were your last", don't let the good stuff slip away.
Even though I still felt "down" with the headache, I also feel like this was one of the days I want to remember! The day Adam lost his first tooth. I want to remember his sweet smile and new gap! I want to remember his excitement and the story he told about losing it. But when I go back to that moment I want to leave out the part where I had a headache!
This post is part of the 30 minute blog challenge at Steady Mom.